So, remember a while back when my grandma got that whole “two months to live” news? Well, she made a miraculous recovery, it seemed, and has held on for more like six months. Now, all of a sudden (partway through last week), she’s gone downhill extremely quickly. She’s got no strength, can’t get up or down without the help of two or three people even to go to the bathroom (and she barely goes when she gets there), she’s not eating, she’s sleeping/semi-conscious for approximately 22-23 hours per day, and she woke up tonight and began leaning off the bed feeling around for her glasses (which she’s kept in the living room overnight for years and years).
We’re thinking the cancer, which had gotten as far as her vertebrae last we knew for sure) got into the spinal cord and into her brain, which is why this is happening so quickly. It hurts to know she’s suffering like this and I can’t do anything about it. It hurts more to have my dad, one of the strongest people I know, call me bawling his eyes out, saying he can’t handle this. I need to be there for my dad. I just have no idea what to say. We don’t have a car and they live three hours away, so we don’t have a way to get there without really inconveniencing someone else. This is just not a good situation. I don’t like it at all.
To make matters worse, though, I have cousins that just lost their other grandma today. It’s been coming for a while, but it was still very sudden, ya know? And now they could easily lose both grandmas within days of each other. I feel so bad for them and wish I could do more for them, but just…who knows? I don’t.
I guess I should post this here.
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Okay, so. Corporate-level people have decided that the produce department isn’t where they want it to be with grand opening being only a week away. So, they’re bringing in a guy from another store — seemingly permanently (as permanent as anything gets with this company) — to make “an immediate impact” or shake things up or whatever and get us to where they want. Problem? They’re wanting to make him the qualified back-up to the department head. The position I’m currently in training for.
Say it with me now: W. T. F.
Supposedly, this won’t actually negatively impact my training. Training will still continue as is, I’ll still be qualified, etc. Problem is, according to company rules, there can only be one qualified assistant per department per store. They’re going to try to swing it so we can get around that rule and have two qualifieds at our store. They made it sound like it wouldn’t be too difficult given the big plans they have for our store, but it sounds to me like “try to swing it” could be easily shot down with a high-level “nope,” leaving me very few options:
1.) After becoming qualified, transfer to another store and be their back-up
2.) Stay at the current store with all my training and knowledge but not actually have the position or the pay that goes with it, leaving me at a measly $7.45/hr instead of the $14.25/hr minimum I could be making as the qualified.
Problems with option 2 are obvious. Problems with option 1 are simple. If they leave me in a Bloomington store (one of the other three here), I’ll be okay. I can bus to all of them or walk if needed. If they try to move me to another city that’s still within our region, however, I’m screwed. We don’t have a car right now, so I have no way to get to Martinsville or Columbus or wherever else. A car is high on our priority list of expenses, but it’s gonna be hard to get a usable car in a short period of time without getting more money. If I can’t get more money without having a car, I’m in a catch-22. UGH. This is so unfair!
They’re assuring me that it’s not a punishment in any way and has absolutely nothing to do with my performance. In fact, the produce coordinator for the region and my store’s manager both say they have a whole lot of confidence in me, that I’ll be a department head soon “and a great one at that.” They also say that a lot of important people know my name and are talking about me, that I’m “on a lot of radars right now.” So things are certainly sounding very promising but moving as slow as ever. I keep being told by anyone and everyone that nothing is fast with this company. Nothing happens quickly. They drag their feet a lot. But once things actually get in motion, it movies relatively quickly. I know I’ve not even been there for a year and a half, and I know it’s still my only job since college, and I know things are sounding promising and I could quite possibly be one of those rare cases where you start off working in the trenches and work your way up to the big leagues and stay with one company your entire carer…I know all that. I know that things aren’t nearly as bad as they feel like sometimes. But dammit I wish it would move faster.
So, Meghan and I eventually want to get a dog (and a cat, but that’s another post), as we figure it’s a good practice run for a kid.
Okay, actually, the cat thing probably isn’t a whole post. Long story short, we’re going to adopt one, likely an adult one, hopefully grey and old-man looking and name it Murray, because reasons.
We’ve been looking at different breeds, particularly ones we have experience with, and I think we’ve got it narrowed down to three (though Meghan may correct me). Surprisingly, my favorite breed (labrador!) isn’t on the list, but that’s because we just can’t. We’re just not all that active, and labs have boundless energy. We’ll get out and walk and play with a dog, sure, but we don’t have acres of space to run and play and all that on a daily basis.
The three we’ve got it to are as follows:
Cavalier King Charles Spaniel - These dogs are just awesome. They adapt to your lifestyle, from everything I’ve read. Apartment, mansion, whatever. Active family? They’ll be active with you. Couch potato? They’ll snuggle up. They’re so smart, even sweeter, and also this:
(edit: I just remembered that this dog was actually a Cockalier (a cocker spaniel mixed with a cavalier, but it basically looks like a cavvy)
Toy Poodle - My grandma had a toy poodle throughout most of my childhood. She adopted her at an unknown age when I was about 6, and we finally had to put her down when I was 16 (mostly out of a sense of compassion — poor girl was blind, mostly deaf, and could barely move after falling down stairs a couple times). These dogs are awesome. SO smart. I mean, grandma’s had a complete understanding of “Joshy’s home!” when I’d come home late in the night after she was asleep in another room. Grandma’d tell her the next morning that I was home and she’d come running into my room, onto my bed, and cover me in kisses. Sweet, sweet dogs. She also understood so many different verbal commands it blows the mind (even differentiating between “ball” and “toy” when we were telling her what to go get), and I’ve read that it’s a very common trait among poodles. They also don’t shed, no real allergy issues, and loyal to a fault. Only downside I know of is they’re yappy sometimes. They think they’re a lot bigger than they are, so they want to be guard dogs. Every time someone came to the door, that dog would be barking her head off until she finally figured out it was someone she liked (or didn’t, in which case she’d stay close to grandma and give the stranger the stink-eye).
Finally, the Golden Retriever - I’ve been told that once you own a Golden, you never go back. I’ve been around a couple in my life on a pretty regular basis, as I have a close cousin that loves them. Her current one, Maggie, is still a bit rambunctious, although she’s calmed down with age, but her hyperactivity and lack of obedience is largely due to the fact that my cousin didn’t have time for a dog when she got her as a puppy. Poor thing had to spend most of her days in her kennel until evening when my cousin would get home. Cousin would just want to relax after work, but Maggie wanted to play and get rid of all that energy! Just not a good situation, but she’s mellowed as she’s gotten older. She’s also adopted my cousin’s kids as hers; she takes care of them constantly. I babysat them one night, and one of them started crying (for various reasons) and Maggie stayed right next to his bed all night to stay with him. Adorable! Very smart, very loyal, and very cuddly, and about as active as we’d probably be willing to be. Only problem is that we might not be able to afford a big enough space for one for a little while (assuming we can have a dog in our next place anyway), so a bigger dog like a golden may not be a good idea.
As a side note, we’re not ruling out mixed breeds at all. Those are just the three single breeds we’ve narrowed it to. We’ll no doubt adopt from a shelter anyway (barring unforeseen circumstances), so the odds of a pure breed aren’t all that high.
Whatchu think, tumblr? Have any experience with these dogs? Am I completely off in my assessments of them? Am I missing something really good?
I actually mentioned you when we first started talking about it due to your musical ambitions :)
As far as Louisville…it may have just been the time of year we were down there or something, but it didn’t really do a whole lot for us. It wasn’t that we disliked it, we just didn’t get much from it. That’s gotta be sacrilegious to you though lol. We should try going down again when it’s NOT derby time and see what we think. It apparently was recognized as the “most livable place in America” and “manliest city in America” last year, along with a few other nice things, so it’s probably worth another look.
EDIT: One thing about Nashville, though, is that it’s a hotbed for publishing, which is the field I’d like to get into. There’s a fair amount of touristy stuff there, along with big events and conventions and stuff for Meghan, and music for you. So, move to Nashville with us, etc.
Tumblr may as well be my Magic 8 Ball.
Okay, tumblr folk. Meghan and I are looking into ways to improve our situation and just change or lives, get them moving in the right direction. We found an article a few weeks ago that said Nashville, TN is a great place to live for job opportunities, home prices, schools, friendly people, and just general everyday life. What do you folks know about it? We’re really considering it, once we’re a little more financially able, and we’d like to know what we’d be getting ourselves into. We’re a young couple in our early 20s, fresh out of college and married for just under a year. We feel like this is the best time in our lives for a big move like this, since we have nothing chaining us to Indiana at the moment.
Anybody out there have any experiences you’d care to share, good or bad? Opinions? Job offers?
My boss got fired.
Remember how I hate my job?
Well, it might marginally improve, even though it’s likely to change pretty drastically. My boss got fired for, you know, NOT WORKING. (“you had one job” meme)
They’ve already decided they need me to sort of replace part of the work he was supposed to do, so instead of cutting fruit, I’ll be out on the floor stocking tables/shelves, dealing with customers, etc. Same basic shit I did in the meat department. Easy enough. I enjoy customers. Yada yada.
They’re trying to convince me this is a step up, and I suppose it is. I don’t have to just stand there in one spot all day cutting up strawberries. On the other hand, I won’t have my extremely consistent schedule of 8am-4:30pm Monday-Friday. Now it’s going back to being all over the frickin’ place. Chances are I’ll USUALLY work during the day — somewhere in the neighborhood of that 8am to 4:30pm, give or take an hour or so here and there — but I know I’ll occasionally have to close, which means working something like 12:30 to 9pm or 1:30 to 10pm. I much prefer days. I much prefer consistency. UGH.
whatever. I’m making money. I’m getting 40 hours now, and that doesn’t (knock on wood) seem likely to change in the near future. And if certain dominoes fall the way they might concerning who our new department head will be, it may mean really good things for me. We’ll see. Wish me luck.